Hmmmm... I haven't posted in a long time because I don't like my posts ending up sad! But I felt like doing one... Until I started typing! Silly Livejournal *hits livejournal with a rolled up newspaper!* I've not been up to much, going to Canterbury tomorrow so we'll start packing when Gemmel gets back tonight as my back really hurts today... All of the rides were fine except X:\ (we decided it's a grumpy face like >:\ but with doubly eyebrows) no way out where it has two lumps that stick out either side of the spine... After that, running to the dome and getting drenched more than we deemed possible and standing for too long, it was very hard to breathe as it was pressing on my ribs like it did the first week and the cold from being soaked to the bone probably didn't help! My lips went blue, who needs blue lipstick when you can just get drenched! :) So today I'm paying for it anyway... Besides that my back is healing nicely! We're driving up tomorrow (so my back will hurt lots after that!), and coming back the next weekend I think to drop off the car as we don't want the temptation of lazyness whilst we're there! As for now I'm playing with my old karaoke machine, it's lots of fun and like 11 years old yet it has two microphone slots, echo, tone, pitch dials, a tape recording thingy and a few things I could plug into the back :) I don't have a tape though :( Maybe it's a good thing :P Bridie's not been around for a few days now... I hope she comes back soon! Feels like it's almost winter already because summer started at easter for us! Enough anyway! I'm tired and having too much fun singing to write anymore!

I don't know who I feel more sorry for? If Lisa Simpson accidently had meat fall in her mouth she wouldn't be happy...

I haven't really been bothered to do a Livejournal. It feels like work :/ I've been playing lots of games at the moment and done lots of things with lots of people. It's fun but I still feel sad lots.

It seems that what mummy has is DID, This isn't confirmed or anything but the "symptoms" are uncanny. I don't want to go away but daddy says he doesn't want me to either. But now he's figured out what it is, maybe he won't feel like he has to be with mummy or anything and maybe he'll find someone else... I don't want to lose my daddy!!!

I want to write and write and write but at the same time I don't want to. I don't like feelings sad. It's horrible and I wouldn't want anyone to feel sad or be in my position! I want to grow up in my own body and do my own things like have my own boyfriends and move in with him and have a baby and be a mummy but I will never be that. Daddy made a story up that he is big and important in the future but in the past he was very sad so never did the good stuff that he was supposed to so someone had to sacrifice their life to save everyone in the future. And a small purple haired girl did it. I might make it a proper story someday... But at the moment I don't want to be around!

Since this afternoon daddy has been acting all weird, I don't like it it scares me and other people have been saying stuff about weapons that have been scaring me as well so I have spent the whole evening scared and sad and very lonely because I won't see anyone tomorrow because they are all busy and probably have better things to do than see a person who thinks they are 8.

I went to Reading today with Emma, Devro, Elmo and daddy... It was kind of fun but I was still feeling sad through most of it and by the end of it the sadness got the best of me and mummy came back. After that we dropped Emma off and went to Elmo's and played articulate with elmo's sister. But I wasn't out so it wasn't fun except when Devro had to describe the word Articulate and he couldn't think of a way to describe it... he forgot the game was called articulate... I guess you had to be there...

For dinner we had steak and homemade chips and it tasted really nice thanks to mummy. I like her cooking...

Daddy got the job at Thorpe Park but at the same time the people that lived with him last year told him to pay more because mummy stayed there for bits so I still feel all funny inside from worry I think. I can't tell... Mummy feels it lots. She really wants the job at Sainsbury's so we can be a bit more comfortable!

Mr Dog is okay. He's being happy to try and make me happy. But it's not working very well... But he tries and he keeps me safe so it's ok. A few days ago we forgot to bring him with us when we went shopping so I got very scared and mummy came out with a bad head :S I was scared!! He's on my lap right now. I'll never have a proper valentine from a boyfriend or something... Thought just crossed my mind...

So yes, basically I'm lonely scared and sad... but I have to be happy for mummy and daddy so I am okay :D

I try my best...

Lots of Love

Sage

Yesterday was bad but today I'm feeling a bit better. I've been out for a while now. I've been online and me and Gemmel went to Tesco to get some bread, then we tried to go to a park but it was closed. So I called up Hollie to see if we could see her and we couldn't so then we went to a park and had lots of fun and I packed a surprise picnic for me him and Mr Dog. Afterwards he told me to lead the way home so I led him lots of ways and at half past 8 we were in Dinton Pastures because I made him go there with the directions so that we could see the sunset. But it turned out the carpark locked at 9 and the sunset wasn't til quarter past :( Last night I put an unopened bottle of perfectly clear in the freezer because it was hot, and I forgot about it until this morning and the bottle had got really big but didn't burst and even the wrapper was pulled open. It still hasn't defrosted fully now so we have an ice cold drink all day long! We had dinner from the fish and chip shop and my saveloy was the worst saveloy I ever had! I ate most of it though. Then daddy wanted me to eat more chips but I felt really poorly so I couldn't. I had a coffee and sat down online. And then I was joking with my friend Ricardo and he took the joke too far and carried on even when I said stop so I got upset and blocked him on msn and set him to ignore in two different ways on IRC so he couldn't talk to me. And even though he's apologised through daddy I still don't want to talk to him because I'm upset. I hope the other friends I make don't make me feel like this. I find it hard enough to keep a smile as it is! :D

I was writing my will last night so I was ready for when I went, because I really wanted to go but daddy got really upset and said I made him happy so now I have to stay to keep him happy because he's done so much for me and I can't imagine making him sad. Plus, I don't think you go to a good place after you die if you make your daddy sad...

So now I try really hard to be happy to make daddy happy. I hope one day I will be able to go with a smile all day and mean it!

I don't feel very well today, I haven't for a few days now but todays the worst! It's so bad I even went offline to have a nap :o

At the moment I am only talking to Devro. There isn't anyone else to talk to, but maybe that's good because the noise of the keyboad clicks is hurting my head :(

I really want beans on toast :(

I made my first friend that wasn't made by Bridie. His name is Ricardo and he lives in Portugal! But he said that he might come to England soon and stay with his friend and then I can see him and he's really excited about seeing mr dog! I felt privelleged because he sent me a picture in case he came without telling me so I could recognise him and he doesn't send pictures to ANYONE! :D He's really really cool! :)

Being a spy is still boring but I had a lot of fun yesterday on IRC... I convinced people I was in their alliance, but it was easy!

[31:23:31] Sage are you in dest in jup2
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[31:23:42] yes razor
[31:23:42] aha
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[31:23:43] * fiftycent sets mode: -o Sage_Soussi
[31:23:43] LOLOLOLOL
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[31:23:43] * Sage_Soussi was kicked by fiftycent (fiftycent)

Basically I kicked lots of people out of their own channel on IRC until I was banned because they asked me if I was a member and I said yes and they didn't even check... What's even funnier is what happened when they unbanned me...

[31:23:52] hey razor, r u in the destructors private channel?
[31:23:52] * Razor1 sets mode: +o Sage_Soussi

They gave me the power they give their members again! LOLOLOL

If you were there you would find it more funny :D Especially because those people are horrible... fiftycent is a chav and all of them were drunk last night!

Erm... Anyway... I'm poorly and daddy and mr dog are looking after me and hopefully I shall eat something soon cos I haven't yet and I know I should!

Just a short post again for today!

BYE!

Lots of Love

Sage

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Yesterday I got very sad because I saw how young I was and it wasn't very happy and for some reason my head hurt so much for so long and I could hardly breathe and I was crying but daddy was hugging me. But I cheered up a bit after my head stopped hurting a bit. I played with Floppy Elmore Dog and nearly convinced Gemmel he was real! He's even starting to smell of dog! :)

I want a coffee :( Oh and we found another New Road today!!!

It's really hard explaining to people that I'm sharing a body, but I feel bad about lying!

Don't want to say much else... It's mummy's turn to be out at the moment!

Lots of Love

Sage!

Hehe, my name is Sage... And I share my body with Bridie. I woke up on the 11th of April 2006 and I was told that I was a bit poorly but I'd remember everything soon. But now I am part of Bridie as much as she is. Erm, what to say lol! Er, I have my own stuff, like Mr Dog, or his full name, Floppy Elmore Dog, I have this LJ, I have my own msn account :) and I have hama beads and colouring pens, which I used to colour in an entire colouring book in under 10 days! Bridie and Gemmel are like my mummy and daddy that I never really got to have so I call them mummy and daddy. I can come out whenever I want and mummy doesn't mind as long as I'm happy.

A few things that make me happy are coffee and computers! YAY! And Floppy Elmore Dog of course! And mummy and daddy! So lots of things make me happy. But lots of things make me sad as well...

When mummy is out I just watch everything she does from the inside and it's not very nice. It's enough to drive people crazy! And sometimes it does. Twice I have tried to go away and never come back but both times I have failed. One day I might actually go away but I've spoken to daddy about it (because mummy can't really hear me) and he knows how to look after Floppy Elmore Dog and what to do with my hama beads and he will play my song and my wind up radio on my birthdays. It makes us both sad but sometimes I'm so sad I think not even my happy things can make me happy :(

At the moment I am being a spy on a game, it's really boring because nothing exciting is happening but Floppy Elmore Dog is making it more fun by sitting on my head! I'm hoping I get to have Mini Kievs for dinner soon because they taste so great!!!!!! Jarrod told mummy they sounded silly, but he was silly by saying that so NER!

I also have my own neopet! It's a Kacheek called Floppy_Felmore and my username is Sage_Soussi, I've only been on it a few days and I've made 25,000 neopoints!!! I think Floppy_Felmore is very happy! :D

Speaking of which, Floppy Elmore Dog HAS to come off my head now because it's really hurting my neck hee hee, but he is really soft and cuddly and keeps me safe at night whenever daddy isn't there.

OH! I forgot! Singing makes me happy as well! :) Mummy doesn't like singing very much because she doesn't practise enough and so her voice isn't as good as it could be. But I still think it's fun and I think i'm quite good! :D Hehe, daddy sang just then.

Ooh! Better hurry up for Simpsons! We got NTL and so we have lots of simpsons to watch on Sky one argh!! With mini kievs I hope!

Let's think... What else do I like... Seeing friends! But I don't have very many because they are mostly Bridie's friends. But Elmo and Jo and Clare and Devro and Dave and Will and Sean are all friendly, I think of Elmo lots because Floppy Elmore Dog reminds me of him! :) I wish Hollie wasn't scared of me, hopefully she'll like me soon... Her dog Tazzy didn't like me either, but that might have been because I was pretending to be a cat!!! I have my own City called Petropolis on Sim City 3000 and it's really amazing! But I can't wait til I can play Sim City on the SNES because I'm getting another one soon! :D I can't wait! Then I get to play Sim City and get a Super Gameboy so I can play Tetris and make a pretty border for it! :)

I hope I get more friends soon because I am really lonely, daddy is loads of fun and I know I won't get people to be friends who are the age that I feel but I can still hope that some people will like me. The loneliness makes me sad too... I like talking to people lots online because it makes me feel a bit happier, but it makes me sad because they don't actually know me and I could say I was a 10 ft tall man with big hairy armpits and they would think I was... But I'm not, I'm a person who wants friends :)

I want another coffee :)

Anyway, what to talk about next? Ooh! For those of you who watch League of Gentleman, we found NEW ROAD! :) I'm running out of things to say now lol so I should go before I talk about everything and have nothing to talk about again! ... I hope that won't happy :(

Lots of Love

Sage